What a day... (25th December, 2010)

Feeling a little disturbed today.

Day went with exams,

People thinking nothing else is on my mind

But what to say,

There was everything happening today in this tiny space of mine.

Feeling a little distanced today.

Everything is seeming far from me,

Going further slowly and steadily.

Not being able to stop them,

Not being able to calm them.

Feeling a little sad today.

Days are near when I have to go from here,

Should be happy, should be glee,

I am going to my place where I have always belonged,

But then why is it that I am not happy, why am I sad?

Feeling a little annoyed.

Weird things happening around me, might be because of me,

I don’t know.

I want people to say the truth, I don’t want any lies,

Don’t know what friend I am, as that’s all I get.

A very different write-up,

Something that I am feeling now.

But deep down I know this wont remain for long.

Nothing/No-one in my life remains for long,

They go away as soon as I realize their importance.

Survival...

A peaceful sigh,

A sweet smile,

The carefree laughter,

These are the things which I am really after.

I see the world all busy and tensed,

Thinking, in a few months is this where even I will be heading?

It's been years since my birth,

Always had my parents to support me,

To help me stand.

Now that I want to be free,

But trust me it is not easy.

You love your life-style,

The way you make people smile.

Soon these will be over,

Soon we will all separate.

I cannot do it,

I am not that strong,

I don't think I can survive

Another Depart.

History???

The day has ended,

The dusk has set in,

People walking, people talking,

The cool wind of the evening,

Oh! Its so soothing.

All of a sudden I remembered the day,

The day I first met you,

The day I first saw you.

My eyes followed you till you took your seat way behind in class,

I was sitting in front, way apart.

You had a smile,

One which I will never forget,

It was at that moment I felt,

My heart had started to melt.

The faculty came,

He taught something,

I don't remember.

Days came and days went,

And all of a sudden you were a very good friend.

You shared everything,

You talked a lot;

And then I told you my feelings.

You were taken aback,

Shocked and surprised, near to tears.

I agreed that we will still be friends for years and years.

Then it happened one day.

You broke it.

Shattered into pieces,

Broken like a glass.

I thought I won't mend it,

Never in my life, ever again.

But then I came away,

Away from everything old,

And I started anew.

I am surprised at my healing,

So quickly, its rejuvenating.

But still when I see you,

Your name there,

It pinches in my heart inside.

I am trying hard in order to find,

A complete healing from this feeling of mine.

Wish me luck.